15th august 2008.

sunny-rain.

happy-excited-sad.

I didn't see your name appear in my inbox again..
For that moment that's the only thing i could desire.
i must not be greedy.
i know the limit.
that's all i can have.
for the mistake i have made.
for a mistake that i don't even know how it happen.
for a mistake that i don't even know its a mistake.
I've long know that what i truly desire would not even happen in the freaking dream.
i daydreamed for it.
looking around for you.
or something that can let me always not miss you as much.
i fail-ed.
i search high and low for it.
and i end up at the end of the world.
if i could rewind everything i wouldn't want to change anything.
because this is how it will happen naturally.
even if i want i wouldn't even have the ability to change it.
and for the sake that i do not want to have any bad memories of you.
i want you to be just as beautiful as your name.
i love your name.
i love you.
i really misses you.
it's not for viewing or what so ever.
i wrote this because i do not know where else to show my feeling.
i might go berserk if i do not give it out somewhere.
you just keep going round and round in my brain.
do you know how much i wish i could take my brain out and take you out of it?
just to save it in the computer.at least i wouldn't be suffering as much.
i am tearing as i am writing.i do not know why.
it had been really really long since our story starts.as well as end.
I've never being in this states before.
i do not know how to handle all this anymore.
when ever i feel happy sad fear alone bored i always think of you.
how?
when is your name going to appear in my inbox again?
lastly i gonna congrats you on direct admission to Sp accountancy course.
i am feeling like shit now.even after listening to mr brightside i still couldn't find my source of light.

I've not being replying tag..i am truly sorry.

Te ubesc

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