removed everysingle thing in my blog.. open to public again..
ifearifearifear,i fear to fall inlove again , i fear to love someone again.
i do not have the confident of providing what they need to them anymore.
i used to be so confident that if i am really into getting a girl it can be so easy,
but it is just all so superficial, i do not know now that i am typing this .. would i feel that what and how i am feeling right at this moment would be consider stupid by the me tomorrow, it always happen this way i am always laughing at my older post, so childish, so naive , so stupid

yes i still have feeling for genevieve ng shimin i think i have to be frank to myself...
but even if she is single, even if she like me again ... i do not have the confident to take her as my girl anymore and not just her... everyone else.. it is just the same..
i feel that everything else in the blog is not needed so i deleted them away.. blog should remain as a blog, a dairy, a journal for you to note down what the fuck are you thinking at the moment when you're typing it for you to look back and look at what mistake had you done.. no point to be so colourful isn't it? for people who are still confident.. cherish it before you lost it.. i am worse, i do not even know how the fuck i lost it.. what is the reason..
zuzu armstrong told me this before.. a guy's first love will follow him down his grave.
but i beg to differ.. a guy's first true love will drag him into the grave.. :) and loses faith in it.. i just do not trust love anymore..