fail my BTT .
kind of sad .
retaking on the 16th of nov .
disappointment .

undead knight.
insufficient sleep.
nice orange juice.
nice dior perfume.
no new clothes.
screwed up 2nd week of school.
mess up 3rd week's grade.
boring class.
screwed up personality i have.

Hey Jude don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

Hey Jude don't be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better

And any time you feel the pain, Hey Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder
Na na na na na
na na na na

Hey Jude don't let me down
You have found her now go and get her
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

So let it out and let it in
Hey Jude begin
You're waiting for someone to perform with
And don't you know that it's just you
Hey Jude you'll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder

Na na na na na
na na na na Yeah

Hey Jude don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her under your skin
Then you'll begin to make it better
Better, better, better, better, better, Yeah,Yeah,Yeah

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na
Na Na Na Na, Hey Jude!

"hey jude" by the beetles

work from last night 10pm-8am
travel to swimming and waiting for people 8am-10am
swimming 10am-2pm
slack 2pm-4pm
travel to amk for ktv 4pm-4.30pm
ktv 4.30pm-10.30pm
makan10.30pm-11pm
travel home 11pm-11.45pm
now 12pm
26 hour of not sleeping and vigorous exercise..-.-

going to sleep now.. yawn*

i am posting almost the same time as yesterday .
another disappointment .
when i set my mine on you .
once again i gain another setback .
mum's birthday .
happy birthday mum .
hope you like the gift .
hope you like the cake .
if school is a misery to you .
you appearing in my life is a misery to me .
not dedicated to anyone except for myself .
do not ask me who as i wouldn't even bother to remember today .
restriction on posting again .
i hate this type of thing .
i can't post what so ever i want to post .
as someone out there would be sad .
but me not able to post it out would be sadder .
but i kane who care for others a thousands time more than i care for myself .
sometime i really hate it this way .
as i wouldn't be able to do/write nor say what ever is really in my heart .
if you understand what i mean .
a coffee spilled would leave a stain there .
it would never ever go away .
and cause i am kane who would rather make myself suffer than to see other people suffer .
and this is why i hate going into a relationship .
cause even when i know that i am suffering .
as long as you whom i do not love anymore happy i am contented .
and this is kane .
i can't bear to see anyone to put on a sad face .
and i rather i am sad .
trying to be happy .
i love kane .
i hate kane .
i am kane .

now that i am posting again .
thing changed .
we are not us anymore .
the term WE had changed to you,me and them .
why bother putting on a fake mask and tell people the fake story ?
it is all because that homo sapien are all selfish.
homo sapien stands for modern human .
does modern means forgetting the pass happiness so easily ?
if that is the fact then i rather i stay as what human are firstly formed .
at least we stay united as one .
let us not talk about being united but at least i am not looking at bunch of people putting fake smile giving fake laugh .
i am bored .
i thought you and them could make my life better .
it appear that it is not .
i am still me .
i do not do things that my mind tell me not to .
i do not put on a fucking fake mask and face you all .

and now ,
i rather be out of this team .
be call a spoiler .
and laughing at you and them for not able to face each other with the true face of yours at a corner in my own world .
cause my world is now truly mine .
it is not anymore invaded by bunch of people who could make me laugh the hell out .
i am the god of my own world .
i decide who should be in and who should be out .
and now i decide to kick all of you out .
because mutation occur and now you and them appear like a bunch of monster to me .


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long since i last posted on any of my blog..
be it private blog or this one..
awfully spend holidays..working the job you do not like to work..
having no one that really understand you..
why must i get the pressure that other teenager doesn't have to endure..
i work the work i do not like.. while other people can slack the life through and get the equal things that i am getting.. hais..
life is just getting tougher and the dim light that shows happiness is not getting any brighter.. for me at least..
i need someone..anyone..
whom accept me for who i am and what i do..cause i wouldn't change just because who you are..
i saying this not targeting anyone specifically.. i love myself for who i am and what i do.. do not bother trying to change me:D